mental dissorders

I myself have borerline personality dissorder. I have struggled with it my whole life especially since I've had my kids. this makes me have problems regulating my emotions. It makes me reckless and have unstable relationships. I am on serequel right now and it seems to have calmed me down alot. people with this dissorder usually have coinciding dissorders such as depression and anxiety. I have major depressive dissorder, generalized anxiety dissorder, and obsessive compulsive dissorder. the major depressive dissorder started when i was about 8. i didn't understand it though. i just felt bad all the time and i didn't want to go play with my friends. it didn't help that my father and mother fought all the time and that my father beat on me and my siblings. I just remember i would get sick to my stomache all the time and i would stay in my room for hours. the anxiety dissorder started when i was about sixteen. i got a headache in english class and i layed my head on my desk. when i lifted my head back up the room was spinning, I could'nt breath. I thought i was going to die. my heart was racing. my hands were clammy. I felt like i was going to pass out. then after that i would panick for no reason. i would stay up all night fearing that i would die in my sleep. i would only fall asleep when i was compleatly exhausted and couldn't fight it anymore. going to school scared me. interstates and highways scared me so bad that i would'nt drive on them. i would cry when someone else was driving me around on them. the obssesive compulsive dissorder started out after I had my second son. First it started out as post partum depression and later developed into obssesive compulsive dissorder. I was severly depressed and was scarred to death that i was going to shake my baby. I couldn't hold him because i was so scared. my mom had to take care of him for six months. It was hell! i had constant bad thoughts about my baby running through my head. post partum depression can make you scared that your going to hurt your baby. after the postpartum was over it became obsessive thoughts which is associated with obssesive compulsive dissorder. one article i read stated that 40% of deppressed women had unwanted thoughts of hurting their children. The serequil and celexa has helped with that. I no longer have intrussive thoughts. now i can enjoy spending time with both my kids. I actually had to be hospitalized in january of 2011 because i thought i was going crazy. months of therapy and medication adjustment has subsided all my dissorder. now i'm pretty well normal. the worse thing to do with someone who has dissorders though is to call them 'crazy.' that really hurts my feelings when people call me crazy. lot's of people have dissorders. alot of people in my family do.....my cousin hope is bipolar, my mom is depressive, and anxiety ridden, two of my sisters have depression, my sister in law has a few dissorders. If you are suffering with a mental dissorder feel free to talk to me about them. I am a psychology major and i know alot about dissorders even ones i don't have. stars with mental dissorders.......... catherine zeta-jones bipolar dissorders sheryl crowe depression david beckham obssesive compulsive dissor der mel gibson bipolar dissorder paula deen agarophobia jim carrey depression j.k. rowling deppresion