dinner

went to los tress amigo's with caden and blake. caden was so good! i wrote him out a voided check to playt with. he loved it. poor baby chocked on a chip though. he started gagging and i hurried up and picked him up. then he threw up all over me. i was so scared...but he was ok. he wouldn't eat any of his food he just kept eating mine and blake's. which was fine. blake and i got to talk a little. were getting along so good! he even told me thank you for dinner and gave me a kiss. it was so sweet. on the way home caden sang about cody. it was so sweet.

borderline personality dissorder

borderline personality dissorder is a psychological condition charectorized by a disturbance in personality function. this condition is typically associated by unusual instability in moods and black and white thinking. black and white thinking means you either see something all good or all bad. resulting in episodes of unstable relationships, identity, and behavior.this leaves a person unable to relate to other. a person could crave loving relationships and push people away at the same time.they have trouble accepting gray areas. people with borderline personallity have a distorted view ofthemself. they see their self as flawed or even evil.people with BPD also may feel at times that they are invisible or worthless.BPD patients may also feel that they are being victimized and everyone is out to get them. they may feel like a small child lost in the mall self image often changes frequently. this may lead to frequent changes in jobs, friendship and goals. depression, substance abuse, anxiety dissorder, and obsessive compulsive dissorder sometimes coincides with BPD. generally it affects people over the age of eighteen, although sometimes .it's found among adolesence.syptoms usually start during adolesence but come on fullfledge in adulthood.abput 69-75% with BPD self mutilate. they may think that they are the enemy and feel the need to harm onself. suicide rates are high among people with BPD, with suicide rates as high as 8-10%.more symptoms of BPD involve modd swings, impulsive self damaging behavior, fear of abandoment, agressive behavior.anger problems, paranoia, lossing sense of reality.about every two in one hundred people have BPD. Scientist have not found the cause of BPD. they believe it could run in families. people with a history of childhood abuse, death of a parent, or childhood neglect could play a role in getting the dissorder.

yesterday's outting

mom and i picked my little babies up yesterday around three. we went to the goodwill in alton. i held cody and held caden's hand while we walked into the store. we got some movies there for them. barney and some others. then we headed over to the toy isle and both the boys kept saying,"ball" so we gave them two little footballs. they were so excited! we went over bby the stuffed animals and caden asked to get one. he picked up a ballerina teddy bear and said, "i want this one!" then mom said that it was a girl toy and he put it down. i didn't care if he got it though. i'm pretty cool about him playing with girl toys, he just a little guy you know? anyways mom handed him a puppy and he loved it. he asked for it when we got in the car. we were headed to golden coral when caden said, "Iwant to go to mcdonalds!" so we went to mcdonald's instead. when we got in their mom was filling the sodas and i put cody down so i could wheel myself. he of course ran the other way. i told caden to help him follow mommy to the table. he held cody's hand and with the other hand he directed him towards me. it was so sweet. he's such a good big brother and such a good little helper. caden ate most of his food. cody barely ate because he got ahold of a cup of ketchup. he was happily dipping his fries in it and sucking the ketchup off. he threw all his fries on the floor and kept stealing moms fries. we gave him apple pieces and he made funny faces when he bit into them. then he spit the out down himself. we went over to grandma darr's house. the boys kept rearanging her candles. cody also got ahold of her expensive croaking frog. i held it whille he played with it.had to change cody's butt and his diapy rubbed his poor little leggies raw. so i let him run around naked for a little while. he wouldn't get dressed when it was time to leave so we all went to the door and said,"bye, cody." he waved by to us. lol. he wanted to stay at grandma darr's. we got to my moms house and caden's new movie, rugrats in paris that i got him had came in. he watched that till it was time to leave. when we took them home caden got really upset and stated that he wanted to stay with mama, and nana. it was so sad. i had the greatest day with my boys. boy did they wear me out though. i was ready for bed when i got back to my moms.

things i like

90210es, yellow roses, reeses, Everybody Loves Raymond, FRIENDS,Bones,friendship, big green tractor song, my kind of party song, Jason Aldean, Ian Somerhaulder, Paul Wesley, The Vampire Diaries, starburst, new york style cheesecake, meatloaf, the texas steakhouse, los tres amigos, pumpkin cheesecake blizzards, peanut butter shakes, Pan's Labyrinth, Peter Pan, Alice in Wonderland, Jersey shore, pauly D, Vinny, snooki, anything with the word mom on it, birthstones, horoscopes, stuffed animals, qirradelli caramel centered candy,caramel, vanilla cappriccinos, scrapbook kits, pictures, vanilla candles, love spell perfume, blackraspberry vanilla lotion, dark kiss perfume, bath & body works, claire's, necklaces, earings, costume jewlry, hot pink, yellow, cloathing, shoes, belts, scarves, precious, the game of life, chicken quesidillas, zebra print, sunglasses, peace signs, jewelry with names, posters, going to the park, going to the bar, vodka, margerettas, parties, taco bell, king of queens, roseanne, writting, poetry, sylvia plath, dr. pepper, marachinno cherries,stars, drinking games, phones, computers, t.v.'s, One Tree Hill, anklets, cold case, colorfull purses, headbands, photo albums, going to the movies, lynard synard, free bird song, simple man song, texting, aeropostale, abercrombie and fitch, spencers, holloween costumes, halloween, valentine's day, cards, kate winslet, pearl harbor, titanic, the history channel, summer, fall, that 70's show, fingernail polish, getting nails did, rugrat's, chicken parmesan, black cherry vess, the sun, camping, reading, remember me by marry higgin's clark, brownies, taking pictures, cameras, pecans, long hair, scary movies, apple pie gum, cars, nature walks, hairspray, the trees song, the piano man song, billy joel, homemade pizza, chips, painting, crafts, litteracy classes, christmas trees, diamond rings, wild country, sweaters, blogging, love, snuggies, pilloe pals, house slipers, robes, pajamas, Supernatural, 90210, the simpsons, american dad, family guy,how i met your mother, stickers, journaling, shopping, boating, picniks, dancing,motherhood, fishing,steel magnolias, the princess bride, holes, the outsiders, blow, dazed and confuzed, cronicles of narnia, fried mushrooms, fried pickles, fried green tomatoes, chineese food, mythology, egg salad sandwhiches, fried fish, going to grafton, caramel hershey kisses, four leaf clovers, hnadwritten love letters, romance, window clings,

ring around the rosie (worst movie)

ring around the rosie get's two thumbs down from me. this movie was horrible.there's this young girl named, karen bladwin,(played by gina phillips). she enheiret's this old house that she and her sister used to live in from her dead grandmother.she decides to sell te house and plans to go up tere to clear it out. anyways her and her boyfriend get to this house and in the middle of the night she keeps hearing things.then her boyfriend leaves her there by herself. then she befriends this guy named pierce (played by tom sizemore) who lives in one of the barnes who takes care of the land and the animals. one night she wakes up and is halucinating and she ends up falling out of a window and pierce catches her. she goes and stays the night in his house because she i so freaked out. then she goes back to the mansion the next day her sister Wendy shows up.pierce keeps hanging around the house having dinner with them, cooking dinner for them, checking on them. karen seems suspicious of him but wendy is charmed by him. karen keeps wakinng up in the middle of the night hallucinating. one night when she was hallucinating she walked into a closet and pierce showed up behind her. he shut the door behind him and starts to kiss her. she freaks out and say's, "no this isn't right." he keeps kissing her. she escapes and run though the woods and almostfalls off of a cliff. pierce helps her back up then makes him follow her to the house while he's telling herabout this creepy guy torturing twins. then when she get's to the house she wakes up on the floor. she goes into a room and looks into a mirror thenpierce walks up to her.then her boyfriend calls he cops because he can't get ahold of karen. a cop goes up there and looks around and karen tells him everything is fine and he leaves. (what a dumb girl! some guy tries torape in the middle of nowhere and when te cops show up, knowing shes in danger tells them everything is ok) anyways she keeps hallucinating and keeps seeing herself and her sister as little girls with this pervert man following them into rooms. then she convinces her sister toleave with her but the car won't start. then her sister ends up down at pierce's house and their dancing and he starts shaking her a nd then karen comes running down and tries to get into t h e ma n's hou se but the doors locked. the guy tries to rape wendy. kare n finally gets t he door open and the end up getting away. they run to the mansion and he finds them. then their standing on a balcony and he pushes karen into wendy ad wendy falls off the balcony and dies. then karen stabbs pierce and runs out to her sisters body. where it is raining. then she sees a man's figure coming towards her and it turns out to be her boyfriend. then she hugs him and say's,'he killed wendy' then her boyfriend said , "wendy's been dead for seven years."then she runs to pierce's house and it turns out to be just an empty barn. so the whole movie was pretty much just a hallucination. then at the end it shows the two little girls in their bed and a pervert standing over them. then that's the end. it din't even make sense. i would not recomend seeing this movie. it wasn't even scary. it was just really dumb.

my review of that 70's show

that 70's show is awesome. i could really relate to the group when i was in highschool.donna pinciotti was played bylaura preppon. she was so down to earth. it was so great when donna and eric get together and such a tredgedy when he left for africa. i really think they should of got married. eric is kind of an asshole for ditching out on their wedding. especially since the wedding was his idea in the first place. then they tried to replace him with randy. who just did not fit into the group at all. he also had weird hair.

jackie burkhart who was played by mila kunis was so prissy and spoiled. she was so dumb for dating kelso. her and lori dissputted over kelso a few times and jackie ended up kicking her ass. jackie told her she needed to quit laying on her back in one episode lol. a little hypocritical though because jackie makes her way from kelso, to hide, to fez. she was the little cheerleading princes who loved unicorns. kelso played by ashton kutcher was so dumb. he was absolutely an idiot.....falling off the water tower, trying to pull a sign down with his van, dating two girls at once. then he has to learn some responsibility and grow up a little because he pregnated a librarian. he joins the police accademy and becomes a cop. like who the hell would trust that guy with a gun? hyde played by danny masterson was pretty cool. he was always so rational.he loved to party.it was so great that he got to find out who his father was. then him and his sister got to run the record store. wilmer valderelma who played fez was so funny. he loved to sing and dance. he loved disco and roller skating. he was obsessed with jackie. in one episode they roller skated in a contest together.he was the akward new foreign kid and they excepted him graciously into the group . iwasn't really that into the pot smoking but they didn't say the stupidest shit when they where high. i don't really like pot it makes me paranoid.the circle was great. i remember when red instaled that smoke detecter in the basement because he found oujt eric and hyde where smoking pot. he was so funny alway's, "dumbass this"and "dumbass that" kitty was especially my favorite always bringing home sex pamphlets for eric. she was a drinker too. she was always cooking and pampering the kids and she just had the funniest laugh.this show is one of my favorites.

top ten hottest girls

anna kournakova

kate winslet

penelope cruz

keira knightley

pippa middleton

kim kardashian

kate beckinsale

mila kunis

megan fox

kristana loken

the rise of the planet of the apes

i just watched the rise of the planet of the apes. i think experimental testing on chimpanzies and other animals is crual. it really sucked that they had to kill bright eyes. they thought she was being aggressive when actually she was protecting her newborn. i don't understand though how they didn't know she was pregnant in the first place. it was sad that that guy had to put down the chimps. but when he got to the baby chimp he just couldn't do it. then that guy brought him home and raised him. he was so cute! then that neighbor tried to beat him when he was just trying to play on a bike. after that guys father got alziemers again he was playing around in the neighbors car and the guy freaks out on him. he kepts hitting him in the chest. i'm sure that neighbor knew the guy had alzeimers. he still yelled at him and was being mean to him. i don't blame ceaser for going after the guy. he had all the more reason to. then they put him in this monkey prison and that kid that works there is so mean to them. he tazes them and feeds them crap. ceaser is so smart he finds a way to get out and get the serum. then he busts it open and lets the other chimps breathe it in. that kid that worked at that prison place got what he deserved. you shouldn't try to taze a chimp when he's holding a hose. then they all escaped and went to the zoo and let the other ones free. all they wanted to do was get to the forrest. cops were trying to run them down. it's so great though that they got back to the forest and ceaser said."ceaser is home."i give this movie a thumbs up. it's about love and compassion, belonging, and freedom. great movie.

my favorite show

my favorite show is jersey shore. i love it! snooki is my favorite person on there. she's so funny! she loves to party and act silly. the meatball team is the best. their always getting their self in trouble. my favorite part of the show was when nooki drove into the cop car. who does that? lol. then she freaked out because she had to go to jail again. it was also funny when she got arrested on the beach for being drunk. that girl is just so wild! I really think deanna and pauly should get together. you can really tell that deanna likes him. i think that he should just give her a chance. they would be a cute couple. i hate mike he's so mean to everyone and he treats the girls he brings home like shit. whatever happened between him and snooki he should let go of. i just think he wants to be with snooki and he's jealous of Gianni. vinny is awesome! i can realte to his anxiety problems cause i have them to. he's a hottie!sammi and ronnie are cool. i'm glad their not having any problems anymore. sorry but that was just annoying when they were fighting all the time. it was also stupid that sammi would'nt leave ronnie alone when he asked her to. i liked the part where sammi kicked that girls ass. she can really stand up for herself. i thought that it was bullshit that the girl pulled her hair. i like jwow to but i think she gets annoyed to easily. it was sweet of her to chase gianni for snoooki. what was up with that anyways? gianni blew that out of proportian. that's just how snooki is. i don't think it was right of her to cheat on gianni with vinny. i can't believe he forgave her though.i think by the end of the season mike's going to get his ass kicked. lol. what do you think of the jerseyshore cast? (comment below

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top ten hottest guys

Ian Somerhalder

jensen ackles

paulyd

vinny j

ashton kutcher

jared padalecki

josh hatnett

jude law

shane west

paul wesley who do you think is the hottest?

mental dissorders

I myself have borerline personality dissorder. I have struggled with it my whole life especially since I've had my kids. this makes me have problems regulating my emotions. It makes me reckless and have unstable relationships. I am on serequel right now and it seems to have calmed me down alot. people with this dissorder usually have coinciding dissorders such as depression and anxiety. I have major depressive dissorder, generalized anxiety dissorder, and obsessive compulsive dissorder. the major depressive dissorder started when i was about 8. i didn't understand it though. i just felt bad all the time and i didn't want to go play with my friends. it didn't help that my father and mother fought all the time and that my father beat on me and my siblings. I just remember i would get sick to my stomache all the time and i would stay in my room for hours. the anxiety dissorder started when i was about sixteen. i got a headache in english class and i layed my head on my desk. when i lifted my head back up the room was spinning, I could'nt breath. I thought i was going to die. my heart was racing. my hands were clammy. I felt like i was going to pass out. then after that i would panick for no reason. i would stay up all night fearing that i would die in my sleep. i would only fall asleep when i was compleatly exhausted and couldn't fight it anymore. going to school scared me. interstates and highways scared me so bad that i would'nt drive on them. i would cry when someone else was driving me around on them. the obssesive compulsive dissorder started out after I had my second son. First it started out as post partum depression and later developed into obssesive compulsive dissorder. I was severly depressed and was scarred to death that i was going to shake my baby. I couldn't hold him because i was so scared. my mom had to take care of him for six months. It was hell! i had constant bad thoughts about my baby running through my head. post partum depression can make you scared that your going to hurt your baby. after the postpartum was over it became obsessive thoughts which is associated with obssesive compulsive dissorder. one article i read stated that 40% of deppressed women had unwanted thoughts of hurting their children. The serequil and celexa has helped with that. I no longer have intrussive thoughts. now i can enjoy spending time with both my kids. I actually had to be hospitalized in january of 2011 because i thought i was going crazy. months of therapy and medication adjustment has subsided all my dissorder. now i'm pretty well normal. the worse thing to do with someone who has dissorders though is to call them 'crazy.' that really hurts my feelings when people call me crazy. lot's of people have dissorders. alot of people in my family do.....my cousin hope is bipolar, my mom is depressive, and anxiety ridden, two of my sisters have depression, my sister in law has a few dissorders. If you are suffering with a mental dissorder feel free to talk to me about them. I am a psychology major and i know alot about dissorders even ones i don't have. stars with mental dissorders.......... catherine zeta-jones bipolar dissorders sheryl crowe depression david beckham obssesive compulsive dissor der mel gibson bipolar dissorder paula deen agarophobia jim carrey depression j.k. rowling deppresion

did snooki sleep with mike?

everyone know the hit show jerseyshore. mike is constantly bringing up the subject...."sleeping with snooki." snooki is constantly denieing it and calling mike an asshole. in one episode mike's friend unit keeps telling snooki, "don't worry, i got you, girl!" refering to snooki and mike's one night stand. Mike states that ryder and the Unit were both there and whitnessed it. I personally think Snooki slept with Mike. She freaks out everytime Mike comes around Gianni. I understand MIke's an asshole but he keeps bringing it up. so why would he be lying. tell me......do you think snooki and Mike slept together while she was with Gianni?????????

cody scott cagle

my little chunk monk cody scott cagle was born novemmber 1, 2010 at 8:54 am. i went into labor the next morning after walking half the night taking caden trick-or-treating. i woke up in the morning and drove my husband to school half way there i started crying because i was in so much pain. we drove to the hospital and the nurse said i was dialated to a ten. they told me i could'nt have my epiduaral. i was very upset. we had to wait for the doctor and finally i had him. he was 7 pounds 10 ounces and 19 and a half inches long. he was really chubby and looked alot like caden. caden was so excited to see him. cody's got blonde hair and blue eyes. he just turned a year old 2 months ago. he's really short and chubby. he loves to dance. he dances all the time. he likes to watch barney videos on youtube with me. he just learned how to say no.yesterday he was standing on a chair and i told him to get down and he pointed at me and said,"no!" he loves to follow caden around even though caden's mean to him.he's my little cutie patootie, my baby!

things to carry in a purse

money a wallet drivers liscence student id credit card lipgloss chapstick lipstick eyeshadow mascara eyeliner checkbook lighter ciggarettes keys important papers small photo album planner cellphone emergency list of phone numbers coin purse perfume concealer tweezers nail glue nail cippers bobby pins nail file tide to go pen tampons pads tissues bandaides floss mirror deodorant toothbrush comb gift cards debit cards snack notepad book pen/pencil ipod camera pepper spray calculator

caden blake cagle

caden blake cagle is my oldest son. he's three years old and his birthday is January 8th 2009. He was born on a thursday at 1:25 a.m. he weighed 6 pounds 4 ounces and was 19 inches long.caden was born at st. anthony's hospital by dr. soldrea thompson. He had light brown hair and my ears.He was the little love of my life. he's named blake after his daddy. he likes the colors pink and green. he has green eyes and blonde hair. he's fiesty and likes to beat up on his little brother.he absolutly loves watching movies. his favorites are Rugrats, Barney, the simpsons, and little tykes land.He looks just like his daddy, john blake cagle. he's always saying, "no tso tso!"(tso tso is what he calls his little brother), "O MY GOD, car!" and "I want to go to nana's. he says he's going to be a football player when he grows up.

moving on!

my husband and i are seperated right now. I am living with my mother, Sarah telega. I finally got my 1st social security check at the beggining of january. I've had some people make rude comments about how i shouldn't be on social security and i've had alot of people be really supportive about it. I've been trying to find an apartment for me and my two little boys, caden and cody. I've ran into some discriminating landlords. ONe said,"well who's going to take care of you if you move out on your own?" I just told him that i am independent and i can take care of myself. I really wanted to say, "I'm handicapped not retarded" I called another landlord and explaiened my situation. he said,"so you don't work and you're on social security? what am I suppossed to do with that?"and then he started laughing.Also one time in walmart I was driving one of them motorized scooters and someone stated,"some people are so lazy!" So as you can see i've been descriminated against. the handicapped are people too and should be treated with some respect. where just like anyone else except we have minimal to no function of our legs! Anyways, I am still looking for an appartment to rent. If anyone knows of a two bedroom appartment for rent that's $450 or less, in jerseyville. please hook me up. i would really appreciate it. I've bought tons of stuff for my new to be appartment. real cheap too! I've gone to flea markets and the good will. My moms kitchen and living room is overflowing with crap. lol.

my car crash.

On august 16th I lost control of my car while speeding and hit a tree on lockhaven road in GOdfrey. I broke one of my legs in 6 places and the other in four. I broke my left arm, cracked my pelvis, and 2 vertibrae. My liver and stomache were bleeding. I had to be cut out of my 2002 ford taurus and airlifted to Mercy Hospital.THey put me into a comma for three days and when i woke I had a breathing tube down my throat. I used sign lanquage to communicate. The team of doctors had to do 5 different surgeries on me to reconstruct my legs. I have metal all over from the waist down.I had to wear cast on my legs until the middle of october. I couldn't do anything for myself. i couldn't even get to the bathroom. I had t obe lifted onto a comode after months of using a bed pan.I had to wear a cathetor home because my pelvis injury left me unable to urinate on my own.I layed on the couch for weeks and weeks. finally it was time for physical therapy. my legs would not bend or straighten all the way. They were compleatly stuck in one possition.now my left leg bends to about 80 degrees and straightens to about negative 30 degrees. I am getting a brace for that leg so it will straighten out. the doctor said it should take a year to straightrn itself. my right leg bends to about 95 degrees and straightens to about negative 10 degrees. my ankles are stuck in one possition. my left heel doesn't touch the ground when I stand. I can only walk about 20 feet with a walker and i put most of my weight through my arms. I can't push off of my left leg with out using my arms on the bars. I am still bound to a wheelchair 5 months later and will be bound to it for many more months. Learning to walk again has been a struggle. I have learned how to take care of myself though. I can transfer from the wheelchair to the couch, the car, the bathtub, and the toilet myself. I am very independent and thats how i like it.

all about me!

name chelsey elizabeth cagle
age 21
d.o.b 10/12/1990
zodiac sign libra
hair color brown
eye colorblue green
birthplace jerseyville
relationship status seperated
siblings mary telega brittany, beth, and josh claxton
children 2 caden 3 and cody 1
race caucasion
where do you live now jerseyville
height 5 "2
tatoos nope
peircings ears
gender female
job stay at home mama
shoe size 8 1/2
body type heavy set
sexual orientation gestgtgbts
hobbies scrapbooking card making

favs......
color yellow and hot pink
music rock
sport football
holiday halloween
food meatloaf
number 4
movie idk
month october
city chicago
smell love spell and vanilla
song it's my kinda party
actor ian somerhaulder
actress jennifer aniston
t.v. channel 11
animal giraffe
candy resses
alcoholic beverage vodca
book remember me
one thing you can't get enough of . taking care of my babies
resturaunt los tres amigos
flower lillies
store claires
t.v show house, bones, everybody loves raymond
beverage dr. pepper
magazine cosmopolitan
names alaina, levi
person my kids of course and my mom
place idk

this or that.....
hugs or kisses hugs
pepsi or coke pepsi
thong or full butt thong
mc donalds or burger king mcd
pants or shorts pants
chocolate or vanilla vanilla
friends or family family
listen or talk talk
love or money love
personality or looks both
sun or moon moon
day or night day
country or rock both
long sleeve or short short
n'sync or backsteet boys n'sync
waffles or pancakes pancakes
romantic comedy or thriller romantic comedy

random.....
do you do drugs?no
drink?sometimes
smoke?yes
get along with parents?yes
partier?sometimes
biggest fear? idk
want more kids? no
if you could change your name what would you change it to? elana
best feature? eyes
worst feature? belly
look like mom or dad? mom
ever made out with a friend?yes
do you flirt alot? no
do you like hello kitty? love it
what makes you happy?my boys
what makes you mad? stupid people
what activities do you like to do? scrapbooking, going to the park
who are your best friends? annie calvert and jessica shain
who do you go to for advice? my mom
are you and your family close? yes
favorite childhood memory? camping

do you believe in.....
god idk
religion yes
aliens yes
ghost yes
karma yes
magic no
after life idk
yourself yes

things you hate......
t.v. show big bang theory
movie idk
color brown
person i bet ya could guess
place idk
pet peeve people who dont use their blinker
food suishi
celebrity
names mikayla,peggy


personality traits....
bitchy?yes
daydreamer? yes
shy?no
talkative?yes
energetic?no
happy?yes
depressed?no
slutty?no
boring?no
mean?sometimes
nice?yes
caring? yes
trustworthy? yes
confident? yes
sarcastic?no
friendly?yes
quiet?no
weird?a little
polite? yes
sympathetic?yes
creative?yes
outgoing?yes
daring?yes
clumsy?no
nosy?no
lazy? yes
loud?ye
honest?syes
respectful? yes
concieted?no
artistic?yes
cocky?no
controling?yes
playful?yes